so much to say, so much time

I had a whole huge entry, and my safari closed out .. there is no way im typing all of it again, so i will do it in breif.

I had a rough weak, emotionally. Thought about a lot of things, came to conclusions on my own of course because i never listen to anyone, dont try to give me advice ill shoot it down and be defensive, just be there for me. But yeah, things will be changing. 

I have a phone interview with that school in chicago again. I think if i were to live in LA one more year .. i would combust and be even more polluted with the delusional miscreants that run around in this superficial city. Im considering orange county, its not so hectic, plus i grew up there. I have a lot of friends in chicago though, who knows i still have a while to decide. 

ive been working a lot, well thats a lie .. i worked a lot a week ago, havent really worked at all recently. We are decorating the Lannings medicinal marijuana clinic, mmmhm. So far we did some organizing & bought a couple rugs ..

love driving around with nansee .. its scary.

I got sick for a little, a stomach condition that made my tummy look like this ...

i know right? looks like im 6 months prego .. but no .. i have/had a stomach sickness thing.

i miss my boyfriend. Since my valentines was spent away from coby (it was our yr ann. too) were celebrating when he gets back. Sushi/movie/staying at the Thompson in beverly hills. I spent Vday with all my ladies, beer/weed/streaking ..

(im in the top right corner, the long legs) good times ..

i dont understand why some people are such debbie downers on Vday, just because you have some commitment issues and "cant trust guys" and hate people who are in relationships doesnt mean you have to say the usual "valentines day is for hallmark and the candy companies, its stupid i hate guys blah blah i dont need a guy" well then thats your problem, we get it .. let the people who have good relationships enjoy it, its fun and silly. 

i forgot how much i loved the band metric, i used to listen to them 24/7 when i was 17/18. I love nostalgia, whenever i listen to either tegan and sara, death cab, metric, camera obscura (shit like that) it brings me back to high school and when i thought i was cool and i had "so many problems" .. haha, i would love to go back and kick myself. Whenever i hear a bell & sabastian song i think of me, driving my red bug from my house to my grandma's house (a whole 2 minutes away) but going the short cut way by the lake with the rocks and always hoping to see a gator .. yeah, i dont know i love nostalgia. I always bring up weird memories and i can really creep the fuck out of some people, its a gift. 

well, onto another week of old movies with lauren, eating what i can afford (rice) and not being able to poop. peace .